Updates

Ok, so I am currently in Stephenville, Texas visiting with some step family. Really, the reason I am in Texas to begin with is because registration was last Saturday and I had to take a placement test for math at the college I’m going to be attending in the fall. If you don’t know what school that is, its Wayland Baptist University. God sure has been working marvelous things in my life throughout this past year.

So any who, let’s start out with last Thursday. My dad and I left for Texas around 7pm, driving through the night. It was about a 12 hour drive to get to Wayland, and it was pretty cool that I got to spend so much time with just my dad. We got to talk a bit, and it really made me feel closer to him. I haven’t been very close to my dad in a very long time, so it felt really amazing to actually get to talk to him about all sorts of stuff.

We arrived at my school around 11:30 on Friday morning, which was exciting.

At 1 o’clock I took my math placement test. Can anyone guess what grade I got on it???? Bet not… lol I got an “A” on it!!!!! I totally thought I was going to fail it, but I guess I was wrong. J Since I got an “A” It placed me in the College Algebra class. Wow, me ahead, how did that happen?!?!? That totally made my day.

Saturday’s extravaganza will be posted tomorrow just so my blogs can stay semi short. If I post my blogs too long, I’m afraid no one will read them. So stay tuned for more exciting news on this new chapter in my life. J

See Ya

What has God been telling me?

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately and I should have posted this blog a few days ago but I just procrastinated it. Anyways... 

God has been revealing a few things to me in the last couple of weeks. Here is what I’ve come to realize. 

1. I am supper small!!!! Sometimes I make myself feel big when I’m really not. God has shown me He is way bigger than I could have ever imagined. The link below is a video God used to show this to me. There are 5 videos you don’t have to watch all of them. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ewKtSKbWZUI&feature=channel_page 

2. There was this old text my friend once sent me, it said, to think of 5 things that God has done that is worthy of praise. At the moment I couldn’t think of anything, but as time went on, I realized some things worth of praising. One of them is: Every day God blesses us with a new painting in the sky. Every day, it reminds me of how beautiful He really is. Have you ever heard anyone say a picture can never be as good as the real thing. That reminds me of when I try to take a picture of a sunset. I try so hard to capture what my eyes are taking in, but guess what it never seems as marvelous as it was in person. 

3. To cherish the time I have with the people I love because time fly’s really fast and before you know it you want to turn back time and unfortunately you can’t. 

4. If God wants you to do something, somehow you end up doing it anyway. He pushes and pushes you until you have to do what He says. He has a plan for my life so why do I keep fighting what he wants, after all he knows what’s best for me, but I do it anyway.

I think there is more, but I can’t think of the rest at the moment. :) Peace 

PHIL 4:13 “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me”

Monday news (its monday right) jk

Man, I love working out. :) There’s just something about it, it’s the way I feel afterwards, I guess. It’s the feeling of satisfaction that you did something good for your body. Unfortunately, I haven’t worked out in a wile because of that little thing called laziness. hahaha don’t we all hate that. lol 

Any ways I’m really trying to get back into shape again. I usually would be in shape by now, but since I couldn’t fit track into my schedule this year, it has made me more out of shape than ever before. Ill get back to where I was eventually hopefully :)

Anyway, on to a more serious note I just ate this amazing chicken salad, and it tasted absolutely amazing!!!! YUMMMMM =D it definitely hit the spot.

P.S.- Just a heads up Ill be posting another blog here soon. (either tonight or tomorrow) Tootles for now.

Got it all figured out?

OK so I sit here eating some yummy frosted flakes, looking at a blank word box wondering what thoughts I should through your way today. Then all of a sudden “Bamb!!!!” I know what I must say.... 

“Got it All Figured Out” Confused? Me too, just kidding. 

OK on with my thought.... 

Humans are pretty intelligent, don’t you think? We understand how storms are created. We map solar systems and transplant hearts. We measure the depths of the oceans and signal distant planets. We... have studied the system and are learning how it works. 

And, for some, the loss of mystery has led to the loss of majesty. The more we know, the less we believe. (really think about that) 

Strange, don’t you think? Knowledge of the workings shouldn’t negate wonder. Knowledge should stir wonder. Who has the more reason to worship than the astronomer who has seen the stars? Than the surgeon who has held a heart? Than the oceanographer who has pondered the depths? The more we know, the more it should amaze us! 

Ironically, the more we know, the less we worship..... We are more impressed with our discovery of the light switch than with the one who invented electricity.... Rather than worship the Creator; we worship the creation (Rom. 1:25). 

No wonder there is no wonder. We’ve figured it all out. 

Just a thought for the day. 

See ya!!! :)

He Always Takes Me BacK!!!

OK, so at my church I started this street evangelism group called FTH (Feed the Hungry). I originally started it but was afraid to be in charge of it, because… well actually I don’t really know why but anyway the right person is in charge of it now and it’s better that way because ill be going off to college next year and couldn’t be in charge of it, anyway. 

Well, last month when FTH went down town to feed the homeless a few ladies and I sat down with this man (I don’t remember his name so let’s call him John). So John began expressing his feeling towards religion period. Instantly, I realized this man was going to be an interesting person to communicate with. He expressed he messes up a lot and God doesn’t deserve someone like him; someone who constantly makes the same mistake repeatedly. I tried to tell him that we’re only human and God expects us to mess up again and again, because it’s in our human nature to do so. We can try as hard as we want, but no matter what we do it’ll never work, we will always mess up. God knew that, and that’s one reason His son Jesus died for us, so we could get to heaven. “Because the wages of sin is death” we would have never made it to heaven if it wasn’t for Jesus. 

I told John that I make mistakes all the time, whether it’s messing up and falling into old bad habits or if its finding myself lying. The mistakes can be anything but I confess them to God and every time, whether I think I deserve it, He takes me back. 

I recently make a huge mistake and honestly, I wished God could punish me somehow so I would learn from it. I always learn from my mistakes, but for some odd reason I seem to make it again. Sometimes it’s not for a long time like 4 months or a short period of time like 2 days, but either way it doesn’t matter because God loves me and he knows that I’m going to face temptation throughout my entire life. 

So why, with the knowledge that I have, make the same mistake again if I know it’s not right? 

Sometimes were so blinded by what we see and feel and ignore what God is trying to tell us. I may know that God is with me and I can count on Him to get me through these temptations, but sometimes… I don’t want his help. That is why I make the same mistakes repeatedly; because I try so hard to handle things on my own. I try so hard to say that everything is ok when there is something on my mind. I try so hard to tell God that I don’t need his help, that I can do it on my own. But clearly I can’t do it on my own because I keep falling into the same mistakes repeatedly, just because I want to be strong and do it on my own. 

After I messed up, I talked to God and confessed what I did. I was so angry at myself and wanted to commit the same sin again just because I was made that I fell into temptation again. For a couple of days I was really down because I hadn’t forgiven myself for it. I talked to God again and asked him to give me peace about it. He spoke to me and said:

“Taylor, I love you so much and I know you messed up but see how long you went without falling into that temptation? You are so amazing and I know you are stronger than you think”

Ok God didn’t really speak these words to me but this is what I felt like he was telling me. Soon after this I felt at peace with myself and could finally move on. God works in weird ways, but He always takes me back even when I don’t think I deserve it, he does. It’s because of God I stand here or…. write here, and it’s because of God that I know everything will always be ok. Sometimes the hardest part in life is trying to find the courage to forgive yourself, but one thing you can always count on is that God has got your back and he is lever going to let you fall. 

This story is an example of how God forgives us of our sins and I know many people feel like John (the homeless man I mentioned above) and I know it’s hard to even fathom that someone could or would want even want to take you back. But let me tell you, He does, and it honors him to have you back in his family. 

God has taught me so many things and I would love to go back to that park and find John again and share with him this story that God has given me to tell. This story that can somehow or some way relate to him. It may not be the same circumstance, but God does everything for a reason and this is the testimony I would like to share with him. I hope and pray that my blog will somehow benefit someone. 

God Bless. :)

The security that God has your back

Man, time is flying at the speed of light!!!! Spring break has come to a rap and I’m back at school trying to make the best of the time I have left. My senior year is almost over and I cannot believe this sight….. I used to think I would never be a senior in high school, awaiting the day I would get to start the next chapter in my life. I used to think it was so far away, that I would never get to that point in my life. Well, I’m standing here today, my senior year, ready to take that leap into adulthood and a life filled with responsibilities. Fears flutter in and out of my mind as I debate the upcoming decisions I’m going to have to make in my life, such as college. It’s a scary thing to think about, moving out for the first time in your life, spreading your wings for the first time ever, trusting that God has got your back; trying to decide what school is best for you and what school you could get the most out of, it’s all hard. 

This year has been filled with prayers none stop that God would lead me in the right direction and that I would have the patience to lessen when He speaks to me. Like every child of God we all get distracted, discouraged, lost, joyful, and all those emotions that come with being saved; so I tell you that is why Christ died for us because he knew the world and he knew what it was capable of, he knew that the only way for us to get to the father was through him so he gave himself as a living sacrifice. 

Just as Christ but His trust in God I put my trust in him that He will answerer my prayers in his time, and when he feels I’m ready. My future is scary to think about and my family is having a hard time with the fact that I’m growing up, but I trust that God will lead me and he will reveal his answers to me when my heart is ready to hear his calling for my life. 

I know I want to make a difference in this world, but the question is not when but how. God has the timing planned perfectly, so now, it’s my job to take action and use the gifts God has blessed me with. I hope that someday God will use my blog and my life, so that I may impact someone’s life who, (with God’s help) “stumbles” over my page. When the time is right God will open the eyes of blind, speak to deaf, and lead those who are lost.

Sometimes things have to change...

Ok, so yesterday I was at my friend’s house after church and my sister asked me if I could share my testimony later that night before our hockey game. Scared I said “maybe” unsure as to if I could do it or not. So I planned what to say in my head and talked to God for a while about it. I knew that there would only be one way I could share my testimony; and that was if God could give me the words to say.

So there I stand in the middle of the room, scared, knowing that all these people are going to hear of the many struggles I’ve been through, seeing every eye fixed on me, I shut my eyes and shared the testimony of my faith and the storms I’ve had to overcome to get to the point of which I’m at now; acting as if God was my only audience and that no one else was in the room.

God got me through this testimony and although it was hard I knew that God could use my words so that maybe someone could be set free from the pain they feel inside.

I want you to know that it’s okay to hurt, it’s okay to cry, its okay to admit that you're having a hard time. The world has raised us to think that the way we feel on the inside is something to fear, but its not... God gave us feelings so that one day we could help someone with the same struggles as us.... There are so many hurting people living behind the seance, putting on masks acting like everything is peachy but when in actuality they are hurting so much because they are so afraid of what the world would say if they expressed their genuine feelings. In return so many lives are lost in the fall of the night because no one ever told them they understood the hurt they felt. No one said you can make it! there is HOPE!!!

It’s time to stand and fight!!! We need to open up and let the world know that our generation is going to make a difference. It’s time to put our trust in God and know that He will protect us through every battle we face. I am a servant of God and I I’m going to war!!! I am no longer afraid of what the world thinks of me, and I’ll stand strong knowing that God is my rock and He is by my side every step of the way!!

I hope that whoever took the time to read this post takes my words to heart and is by my side ready to make a difference in this messed up world. I hope that you never forget that all things are possible when your on God’s team.

=) May God bless you in everything you do for Him and His glory. =)