The security that God has your back

Man, time is flying at the speed of light!!!! Spring break has come to a rap and I’m back at school trying to make the best of the time I have left. My senior year is almost over and I cannot believe this sight….. I used to think I would never be a senior in high school, awaiting the day I would get to start the next chapter in my life. I used to think it was so far away, that I would never get to that point in my life. Well, I’m standing here today, my senior year, ready to take that leap into adulthood and a life filled with responsibilities. Fears flutter in and out of my mind as I debate the upcoming decisions I’m going to have to make in my life, such as college. It’s a scary thing to think about, moving out for the first time in your life, spreading your wings for the first time ever, trusting that God has got your back; trying to decide what school is best for you and what school you could get the most out of, it’s all hard. 

This year has been filled with prayers none stop that God would lead me in the right direction and that I would have the patience to lessen when He speaks to me. Like every child of God we all get distracted, discouraged, lost, joyful, and all those emotions that come with being saved; so I tell you that is why Christ died for us because he knew the world and he knew what it was capable of, he knew that the only way for us to get to the father was through him so he gave himself as a living sacrifice. 

Just as Christ but His trust in God I put my trust in him that He will answerer my prayers in his time, and when he feels I’m ready. My future is scary to think about and my family is having a hard time with the fact that I’m growing up, but I trust that God will lead me and he will reveal his answers to me when my heart is ready to hear his calling for my life. 

I know I want to make a difference in this world, but the question is not when but how. God has the timing planned perfectly, so now, it’s my job to take action and use the gifts God has blessed me with. I hope that someday God will use my blog and my life, so that I may impact someone’s life who, (with God’s help) “stumbles” over my page. When the time is right God will open the eyes of blind, speak to deaf, and lead those who are lost.

Sometimes things have to change...

Ok, so yesterday I was at my friend’s house after church and my sister asked me if I could share my testimony later that night before our hockey game. Scared I said “maybe” unsure as to if I could do it or not. So I planned what to say in my head and talked to God for a while about it. I knew that there would only be one way I could share my testimony; and that was if God could give me the words to say.

So there I stand in the middle of the room, scared, knowing that all these people are going to hear of the many struggles I’ve been through, seeing every eye fixed on me, I shut my eyes and shared the testimony of my faith and the storms I’ve had to overcome to get to the point of which I’m at now; acting as if God was my only audience and that no one else was in the room.

God got me through this testimony and although it was hard I knew that God could use my words so that maybe someone could be set free from the pain they feel inside.

I want you to know that it’s okay to hurt, it’s okay to cry, its okay to admit that you're having a hard time. The world has raised us to think that the way we feel on the inside is something to fear, but its not... God gave us feelings so that one day we could help someone with the same struggles as us.... There are so many hurting people living behind the seance, putting on masks acting like everything is peachy but when in actuality they are hurting so much because they are so afraid of what the world would say if they expressed their genuine feelings. In return so many lives are lost in the fall of the night because no one ever told them they understood the hurt they felt. No one said you can make it! there is HOPE!!!

It’s time to stand and fight!!! We need to open up and let the world know that our generation is going to make a difference. It’s time to put our trust in God and know that He will protect us through every battle we face. I am a servant of God and I I’m going to war!!! I am no longer afraid of what the world thinks of me, and I’ll stand strong knowing that God is my rock and He is by my side every step of the way!!

I hope that whoever took the time to read this post takes my words to heart and is by my side ready to make a difference in this messed up world. I hope that you never forget that all things are possible when your on God’s team.

=) May God bless you in everything you do for Him and His glory. =)